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some of my friends from london said they have my blog URL, and wanna read but its in turkish, and ask me whether i can use translator or anything else..İ decide to write in english sometimes.İn the beginning,i’ll say i’m sorry about my grammer and preposition, because i dont feel like i’m in exam so i never read after i write..

İ just remembered a sentence once someone told about relationships..”there is no friendship, if there is only you when you need a hug to cry..”
One thing i learned these days..You are as strong as you think you are, and if you believe that you are alone, only you can fight with your loneliness..All people spin around me leave whenever i need them, especially the time i feel weak and defenseless…Nobody wants to be friend of mine anymore, ‘cos i might be their next problem..Everybody want to see only smiling faces..
After these thoughts, i feel stronger, because suddenly i realize thet if i look much more invincible,indestructible, people think i am the one who they are looking for as a model in their life..They wanna see strength, not other feeble one.Nobody wants to struggle with the others problem, cos everybody has enough their own..This is the point.İ think the friendship is responsible from supporting each other, but somebody see a person weak, alone, say automaticly “oh, i have my own sorrow” or, “no, look at her, porr, who knows how she is problematic..”
Nowadays i try to show up black as they, like i dont have any trouble, apprehension, envy, rancour..And unfortunately it proves they increasingly familiar.What a shame..We call ourselves “human”.

Dont give man a chance to know how much you love him, if he knows that, there will no cahnce to hide this anymore.He might use this, use again, until lose the control in your own relationship.Like in mine..
Sometimes i feel like he manage me.Like he thinks i am obliged to be with him,like i cant let him go away,never,like i feel like i have to love him..
But the reality is,i dont want to spend my labour that i made for more than 2 years..İn fact, i dont wanna spend my effort in vain..
Of course he doesnt know that.He only thinks i’m mad about him,i’ll do anything, never back down..But he’s totally wrong.İ can drop the reins, and make nothing these 2 years,İ can! İ dont want to start again, thats why i dont.
but, how possible i can explain that…